I’d like to try living, in the time I was granted

"She always talks about how plain she is" . . . come on. It's almost worse because I know you're not actually trying to get me to admit you're hot. If you were, I could ignore it as a really pathetic effort on your part. But it's not even that! You legitimately don't think you're a conventionally attractive woman. Guys like me look at girls like you and know we'll never have you. Some guys are total assholes about it, so I guess I'm glad you've obviously never run into that before, at least.