Of course I am. That's the point. That's what kinda person you are. I can't believe you don't see it yourself. . . . And I've seen you on the battlefield, so I know all about how you operate under pressure.
[It was really that reckless behavior that made the greatest impression on Kadoc of the kind of person Fujimaru is—well, that, and now the fact that she wants to be his friend. She wants to spend time with him; she's happy he's alive, despite it all.
Between that and her throwing herself onto the front lines, how can he not think she's crazy?]
It's not like I like having to be out in the middle of a fight, either.
[ At this point, there's only crumbs left on his plate, but she's still idly picking at the largest of them. It's not even that she's hungry anymore, not really, but it's at least something to look at, now and then, that isn't his face. ]
The first fight, in Fuyuki, I thought I was going to die at any second. I've never really stopped feeling like that. Wouldn't it be crazier to not feel scared?
[ It's easier, to some degree, when Mash is around. At this point, Ritsuka knows exactly how much that shield can protect her from. But as hard as Mash tries, and as hard as Ritsuka tries, there are always circumstances where they're separated--now aside, it's happened plenty of times even back home. She trusts that shield more than anything, but she also doesn't expect its wielder to always be keeping a hawk's eye on her in the middle of a melee battle. ]
It's got nothing to do with you being scared or not. . . . But if you really said you weren't, I'd call you a liar. And if you said you weren't and I could tell you weren't lying about it, I'd be seriously concerned about you.
[As reckless as she is, she is still so very human. If she weren't at all afraid of the situations she throws herself into, it'd be hard to think of her as such. It doesn't at all match the core of what she is. Fujimaru isn't some kind of invincible hero riding into battle without fear. She's just someone who rides into battle anyway.
Kadoc has to respect it. He watches her, too, picking at the plate. No coffee left in his cup to stare at.]
[ As far as digs go, it's not much of one. There's a brief smile as she says it, quickly gone again. ]
Everything in our lives are just--they are what they are. We can't change them, so we have to adapt and do our best. I don't think it's crazy to do that, either. No matter what that leader of yours thinks, or what that alien god wants, I think it's crazier to want to go backwards. Why go back to the Age of the Gods?
[His own lips turn up too at the joke. It was a joke, right? Dry and dark as it was, but Kadoc likes that in a joke. Approved.]
You'd have to ask someone else. I never had any interest in all that myself. But I'm sure you've realized by now that just because we were all on the same side doesn't mean we all had the same goals. It'd be harder if we did.
[ Another joke, dry as it is, and Ritsuka finally leans back in her seat. ]
But that's the thing too. It could've been harder, but it's not, and I'm going to do my best to take advantage of that. And I'm sure the rest of the Crypters aren't going to go easy on me.
But even if they don't, I'm not going to give up. I'll succeed or die trying.
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Date: 2021-10-12 11:09 pm (UTC)[It was really that reckless behavior that made the greatest impression on Kadoc of the kind of person Fujimaru is—well, that, and now the fact that she wants to be his friend. She wants to spend time with him; she's happy he's alive, despite it all.
Between that and her throwing herself onto the front lines, how can he not think she's crazy?]
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Date: 2021-10-13 05:09 pm (UTC)[ At this point, there's only crumbs left on his plate, but she's still idly picking at the largest of them. It's not even that she's hungry anymore, not really, but it's at least something to look at, now and then, that isn't his face. ]
The first fight, in Fuyuki, I thought I was going to die at any second. I've never really stopped feeling like that. Wouldn't it be crazier to not feel scared?
[ It's easier, to some degree, when Mash is around. At this point, Ritsuka knows exactly how much that shield can protect her from. But as hard as Mash tries, and as hard as Ritsuka tries, there are always circumstances where they're separated--now aside, it's happened plenty of times even back home. She trusts that shield more than anything, but she also doesn't expect its wielder to always be keeping a hawk's eye on her in the middle of a melee battle. ]
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Date: 2021-10-18 04:28 am (UTC)[As reckless as she is, she is still so very human. If she weren't at all afraid of the situations she throws herself into, it'd be hard to think of her as such. It doesn't at all match the core of what she is. Fujimaru isn't some kind of invincible hero riding into battle without fear. She's just someone who rides into battle anyway.
Kadoc has to respect it. He watches her, too, picking at the plate. No coffee left in his cup to stare at.]
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Date: 2021-10-18 04:50 pm (UTC)[ As far as digs go, it's not much of one. There's a brief smile as she says it, quickly gone again. ]
Everything in our lives are just--they are what they are. We can't change them, so we have to adapt and do our best. I don't think it's crazy to do that, either. No matter what that leader of yours thinks, or what that alien god wants, I think it's crazier to want to go backwards. Why go back to the Age of the Gods?
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Date: 2021-10-19 05:15 am (UTC)You'd have to ask someone else. I never had any interest in all that myself. But I'm sure you've realized by now that just because we were all on the same side doesn't mean we all had the same goals. It'd be harder if we did.
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Date: 2021-10-20 12:56 am (UTC)[ Another joke, dry as it is, and Ritsuka finally leans back in her seat. ]
But that's the thing too. It could've been harder, but it's not, and I'm going to do my best to take advantage of that. And I'm sure the rest of the Crypters aren't going to go easy on me.
But even if they don't, I'm not going to give up. I'll succeed or die trying.