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[fujimaru]

It's Ritsuka! I've either fallen asleep or couldn't find my phone in time, so leave a message.

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[davincible]

Yes, I know. Me neither.

[ Ruffling her hair. ]

But you do know that means you actually have to take steps of your own.

[fujimaru]

Everyone here is extremely complicated for Reasons, capital R, and you know that.

[davincible]

No. Assume I know nothing. Explain it to me. Preferably with specifics.

[fujimaru]

I'd really rather not.

[davincible]

[ She just Smiles. ]

I know. Which is why, if you really want to change how things are, you're going to need to at least get past this particular hurdle of Talking.

[fujimaru]

I already talk so much. I talk so much, and at this point, I'm starting to feel like talking just gets me into trouble.

[davincible]

... Ah, you're so much like me it actually kind of hurts.

[fujimaru]

...am I?

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[davincible]

Not in the usual ways.

But I too have gracefully lodged my foot in my mouth several times this task. And I also handle people dying or attempting to murder me better than navigating romances these days.

[fujimaru]

...Oh.

[ Well. Clearly the thing to do is to get up and toddle over to Da Vinci, leaning to thunk her head against her arm. Hi. ]

[davincible]

[ She gently tilts her head to rest her cheek against Ritsuka's hair. Similar height solidarity. ]

This is a no trouble zone. We can't possibly make it worse between us.

[fujimaru]

[ This is good, she is fine leaning tiredly on one another. ]

I liked it better when the fires were more literal than metaphorical. At least those where things I could actively do something about.

[davincible]

You just need to figure out a different method. Though that's not exactly easy.

[fujimaru]

I'm working on it. It's only been... a couple of days. I think. I don't know.

[davincible]

This task started three days ago. Though time's felt off here, with how much things happen.

[fujimaru]

That part is at least familiar... it's kind of like I never left home.

[davincible]

I'm not barking orders as much here, thankfully. But it does mean I'm made to focus on other things, whether I want to or not.

[fujimaru]

...Yeah. I've had to think about a lot of stuff I didn't think was ever gonna be an option for me.

[davincible]

Is it still a terrifying prospect for you?

[fujimaru]

...Yeah.

[ Simply, because there's no point in dressing it up. ]

Not just because of what could happen to me... I'm scared of what I might do to other people.

[davincible]

[ A quiet hum; it's non-judgmental. ]

In what way?

[fujimaru]

[ DEEP BREATH........... ]

I feel like I'm a homewrecker.

Even if it's not the case, I still feel like it.

[davincible]

... Having received bits and pieces of Stoat's data and paying attention to things myself, I think a lot of people here could be considered homewreckers.

So your options, if you wanted to be involved with someone, would be to go with someone who's similarly unattached or you try to... hm. Speak with the other partners?

[fujimaru]

I think most people are fine with the way things are--that's just how I feel.

[ She might have Da Vinci's allergy to considering herself a viable partner, but she also (unfortunately) has Roman's embarrassingly deep romantic streak. ]

I'm friends with his partners? I like to think I am, anyway--so it becomes weird. I know it's this whole trope about like, oh no, ruining a friendship by telling someone your feelings, but--it just feels extra weird.

...And even if--even if I think it'd might be nice, it's--...

[ ... ]

It's been a long time since I've had a friend my age, Da Vinci-chan. I love Mash, but I just--want a friend that I don't have to be an example for, either.

[davincible]

[ ... I can't believe I have to encourage this for Saturn, the man I currently want to throttle-- ]

Well, is your friend aware of this? I think before anything, before you immediately shut down the idea, you should let this friend of yours hear from you. Like you said, not everyone feels like a homewrecker. There's no guarantee they'll think of you as some kind of seductive hussy.

Or... multiple friends. However many friends your age you're worried about this affecting.