You say that now, but you'll just have to wait and see.
[ At least his threats to her life were more of a concentrated blitz, a distant enemy that had been stuck in a slowly-closing circle with her. It's not the same as a Servant casually telling her that she would be an easy snack, or the threat of Kiyohime's mad, uncontrollable rage. Kadoc is at least a human being that can be reasoned with, who isn't as beholden to the stories that shape him as a heroic spirit would be.
But when he says that, she reaches out to snag the last little bit of the bread bowl, shrugging. ]
I could! I did, sometimes. That was in Chaldea, though, so I needed everything I could get.
[ She had to generate resources somehow, and eating was probably the best and easiest way for her to do that. But even then-- ]
...Or, I guess I did it sometimes when we were in competition season, back in school.
What competition? Don't tell me you were a jock. Who am I kidding, of course you were.
[This is as close to good-natured teasing as Kadoc can manage as a person at this point, really. Back in school . . . she'd been an entirely normal person. She was just a normal high school girl who was on the softball team or something, competing alongside her friends, with no idea of what the world was hiding from her.
His thoughts are repeating themselves, he knows. Someday he'll get the fuck over it. That day isn't today. Today, his brain still has to remind him at every opportunity that this girl who'd saved the world was an absolutely ordinary nobody whose training had consisted of softball (maybe it was football?).]
[ The effect doesn't carry over, in a world where things are surely being translated automatically, but to Ritsuka's own ears, she says ball or bust! in English. As it is, it probably comes across as a little more stilted in her accent than normal. ]
I wasn't the best on my team, but I worked hard with everyone. There's a lot that goes into it! You've gotta have endurance.
[What the hell? Kadoc hears the strange intonation and can't place what's causing it; his brow furrows and he tips his head, but he can't make himself ask. Maybe if it happens again. Is he just hearing things?! He'll sound like an idiot if he asks and it was nothing!]
That's the most normal thing I've heard in what feels like forever. It really is exactly what I'd expect of you in that sense.
[ She huffs at him, but there's no heat or offense to it. She's interacted with the mage half of Chaldea's staff to know where some gaps might exist. And to be honest, she can't really imagine a class of magus children doing a sports festival.
(To be more honest and accurate, her first thought at "a classroom full of magus children" just brings to mind rows and rows of copy-pasted miniature sour-faced Kadocs. Terrifying.) ]
Just in the sense that you're one of the most normal damn people I've ever met. Aside from being completely insane, aside from everything you've done and been through, you're still like that. So I should know to expect it from you by now.
[This isn't a compliment, and nor is it an insult. It's an observation of reality. The reality feels twisted and complex, sure, but it still is what it is: she is both the most extraordinary human in the world, by virtue of everything that's happened, and painfully ordinary. One might not think those things can coexist in one person, but the evidence is right here.]
I feel like you're calling me two completely contradictory things in the same breath...
[ He's not even the first person who's done something like this, and yet it still confuses Ritsuka every time. How is she supposed to be both "one of the most normal" and also "completely insane"? That makes no sense. Ritsuka crosses her arms, raising an eyebrow. ]
Of course I am. That's the point. That's what kinda person you are. I can't believe you don't see it yourself. . . . And I've seen you on the battlefield, so I know all about how you operate under pressure.
[It was really that reckless behavior that made the greatest impression on Kadoc of the kind of person Fujimaru is—well, that, and now the fact that she wants to be his friend. She wants to spend time with him; she's happy he's alive, despite it all.
Between that and her throwing herself onto the front lines, how can he not think she's crazy?]
It's not like I like having to be out in the middle of a fight, either.
[ At this point, there's only crumbs left on his plate, but she's still idly picking at the largest of them. It's not even that she's hungry anymore, not really, but it's at least something to look at, now and then, that isn't his face. ]
The first fight, in Fuyuki, I thought I was going to die at any second. I've never really stopped feeling like that. Wouldn't it be crazier to not feel scared?
[ It's easier, to some degree, when Mash is around. At this point, Ritsuka knows exactly how much that shield can protect her from. But as hard as Mash tries, and as hard as Ritsuka tries, there are always circumstances where they're separated--now aside, it's happened plenty of times even back home. She trusts that shield more than anything, but she also doesn't expect its wielder to always be keeping a hawk's eye on her in the middle of a melee battle. ]
It's got nothing to do with you being scared or not. . . . But if you really said you weren't, I'd call you a liar. And if you said you weren't and I could tell you weren't lying about it, I'd be seriously concerned about you.
[As reckless as she is, she is still so very human. If she weren't at all afraid of the situations she throws herself into, it'd be hard to think of her as such. It doesn't at all match the core of what she is. Fujimaru isn't some kind of invincible hero riding into battle without fear. She's just someone who rides into battle anyway.
Kadoc has to respect it. He watches her, too, picking at the plate. No coffee left in his cup to stare at.]
[ As far as digs go, it's not much of one. There's a brief smile as she says it, quickly gone again. ]
Everything in our lives are just--they are what they are. We can't change them, so we have to adapt and do our best. I don't think it's crazy to do that, either. No matter what that leader of yours thinks, or what that alien god wants, I think it's crazier to want to go backwards. Why go back to the Age of the Gods?
[His own lips turn up too at the joke. It was a joke, right? Dry and dark as it was, but Kadoc likes that in a joke. Approved.]
You'd have to ask someone else. I never had any interest in all that myself. But I'm sure you've realized by now that just because we were all on the same side doesn't mean we all had the same goals. It'd be harder if we did.
[ Another joke, dry as it is, and Ritsuka finally leans back in her seat. ]
But that's the thing too. It could've been harder, but it's not, and I'm going to do my best to take advantage of that. And I'm sure the rest of the Crypters aren't going to go easy on me.
But even if they don't, I'm not going to give up. I'll succeed or die trying.
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Date: 2021-10-05 03:44 am (UTC)[ At least his threats to her life were more of a concentrated blitz, a distant enemy that had been stuck in a slowly-closing circle with her. It's not the same as a Servant casually telling her that she would be an easy snack, or the threat of Kiyohime's mad, uncontrollable rage. Kadoc is at least a human being that can be reasoned with, who isn't as beholden to the stories that shape him as a heroic spirit would be.
But when he says that, she reaches out to snag the last little bit of the bread bowl, shrugging. ]
I could! I did, sometimes. That was in Chaldea, though, so I needed everything I could get.
[ She had to generate resources somehow, and eating was probably the best and easiest way for her to do that. But even then-- ]
...Or, I guess I did it sometimes when we were in competition season, back in school.
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Date: 2021-10-06 03:40 am (UTC)[This is as close to good-natured teasing as Kadoc can manage as a person at this point, really. Back in school . . . she'd been an entirely normal person. She was just a normal high school girl who was on the softball team or something, competing alongside her friends, with no idea of what the world was hiding from her.
His thoughts are repeating themselves, he knows. Someday he'll get the fuck over it. That day isn't today. Today, his brain still has to remind him at every opportunity that this girl who'd saved the world was an absolutely ordinary nobody whose training had consisted of softball (maybe it was football?).]
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Date: 2021-10-06 03:54 am (UTC)[ The effect doesn't carry over, in a world where things are surely being translated automatically, but to Ritsuka's own ears, she says ball or bust! in English. As it is, it probably comes across as a little more stilted in her accent than normal. ]
I wasn't the best on my team, but I worked hard with everyone. There's a lot that goes into it! You've gotta have endurance.
[ There it is, that use of English again. ]
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Date: 2021-10-08 04:50 am (UTC)That's the most normal thing I've heard in what feels like forever. It really is exactly what I'd expect of you in that sense.
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Date: 2021-10-09 02:32 am (UTC)[ She huffs at him, but there's no heat or offense to it. She's interacted with the mage half of Chaldea's staff to know where some gaps might exist. And to be honest, she can't really imagine a class of magus children doing a sports festival.
(To be more honest and accurate, her first thought at "a classroom full of magus children" just brings to mind rows and rows of copy-pasted miniature sour-faced Kadocs. Terrifying.) ]
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Date: 2021-10-11 05:09 am (UTC)[This isn't a compliment, and nor is it an insult. It's an observation of reality. The reality feels twisted and complex, sure, but it still is what it is: she is both the most extraordinary human in the world, by virtue of everything that's happened, and painfully ordinary. One might not think those things can coexist in one person, but the evidence is right here.]
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Date: 2021-10-11 05:50 am (UTC)[ He's not even the first person who's done something like this, and yet it still confuses Ritsuka every time. How is she supposed to be both "one of the most normal" and also "completely insane"? That makes no sense. Ritsuka crosses her arms, raising an eyebrow. ]
What's so insane about me, huh?
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Date: 2021-10-12 11:09 pm (UTC)[It was really that reckless behavior that made the greatest impression on Kadoc of the kind of person Fujimaru is—well, that, and now the fact that she wants to be his friend. She wants to spend time with him; she's happy he's alive, despite it all.
Between that and her throwing herself onto the front lines, how can he not think she's crazy?]
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Date: 2021-10-13 05:09 pm (UTC)[ At this point, there's only crumbs left on his plate, but she's still idly picking at the largest of them. It's not even that she's hungry anymore, not really, but it's at least something to look at, now and then, that isn't his face. ]
The first fight, in Fuyuki, I thought I was going to die at any second. I've never really stopped feeling like that. Wouldn't it be crazier to not feel scared?
[ It's easier, to some degree, when Mash is around. At this point, Ritsuka knows exactly how much that shield can protect her from. But as hard as Mash tries, and as hard as Ritsuka tries, there are always circumstances where they're separated--now aside, it's happened plenty of times even back home. She trusts that shield more than anything, but she also doesn't expect its wielder to always be keeping a hawk's eye on her in the middle of a melee battle. ]
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Date: 2021-10-18 04:28 am (UTC)[As reckless as she is, she is still so very human. If she weren't at all afraid of the situations she throws herself into, it'd be hard to think of her as such. It doesn't at all match the core of what she is. Fujimaru isn't some kind of invincible hero riding into battle without fear. She's just someone who rides into battle anyway.
Kadoc has to respect it. He watches her, too, picking at the plate. No coffee left in his cup to stare at.]
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Date: 2021-10-18 04:50 pm (UTC)[ As far as digs go, it's not much of one. There's a brief smile as she says it, quickly gone again. ]
Everything in our lives are just--they are what they are. We can't change them, so we have to adapt and do our best. I don't think it's crazy to do that, either. No matter what that leader of yours thinks, or what that alien god wants, I think it's crazier to want to go backwards. Why go back to the Age of the Gods?
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Date: 2021-10-19 05:15 am (UTC)You'd have to ask someone else. I never had any interest in all that myself. But I'm sure you've realized by now that just because we were all on the same side doesn't mean we all had the same goals. It'd be harder if we did.
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Date: 2021-10-20 12:56 am (UTC)[ Another joke, dry as it is, and Ritsuka finally leans back in her seat. ]
But that's the thing too. It could've been harder, but it's not, and I'm going to do my best to take advantage of that. And I'm sure the rest of the Crypters aren't going to go easy on me.
But even if they don't, I'm not going to give up. I'll succeed or die trying.